It was not so long ago
when I thought I'd never meet someone like you.
Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control
Believing I'd never fall.
All my life I thought no one would
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold,
a heart hardened by the past,
protected by shields so vast.
Slowly I was falling
without even knowing.
Only to find out too late
I have no choice but to accept my fate.
I could dream, I suppose
forever, I could hope
there will never be any 'us', that's our destiny
so I wake up to reality.
I lied when I said
I didn't love you,
that my feelings for you
are through.
I lied
not because I wanted to
but because I love you
and I still do.
I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you
but I just have to let go.
I can't hold on much longer
'coz for us there's no forever.
Understand? :)))
Nothing i can do anymore...
LOVES,
niinii
niinii
Anyway i thought of uploading photos! Laziness KILLS me! :p hahas!
Maybe this coming saturday when i meet my BEST friends?
TAKE ALOT ALOT OF PHOTOS! *simply cam whoring* :p
BLAH!
Ends.....
{7:38 PM}
In a sudden, i was thinking in a blank...
What's LOVE mean to you?
I do a research on it.
WHAT'S LOVE?
Author: Dareen
Love is a thing shared by two
Love is what you feel for me and you
Love is precious when its shared
Love is danger when its dared
Love wanders and searches for the one
Love plays and just do it for fun
Love lets you hear love songs to emote
Love lets you make sweet poems & a quote
Love makes the world go around
Love makes us happy if the one we love
is finally found
Love turns the world upside down
Love cheers us never with a frown
Love makes you cry
Love sacrifices and says goodbye
Love has its own reason and time
Love can make someone you love "mine"
Love makes a person kiss
Love makes a person miss
Love is experienced by all
Love conquers when you fall.Girls, Do you ever realize, the one that always make you cry is the person who you really loves.Or even the one that you have been trusting and loves, hurt you more then the rest.
And people who loves you always feel the hurt you have.... and the one who ease your pain is the one you love but the one who clean up your hurt and tears is the one who love you.
But love is a complicated thing, am i not right?
The one you love always hurt you but the one who loves you always get hurt.
I was really thinking is let go a good thing? or holding is a good thing? Waiting for a person you love to change, is it possible?
If he change, isn't your love one not being himself?
So to you guys what's love?
I have been upset for quite long without knowing the reason....
But today when i sitting on the bed and looking into blank, was thinking is it love the one that making me upset?
Love can be really sweet and nice but can be really scary and ugly...
Anyway life's in RBS(ANZ) isn't really a good one.... Call and call but sales not coming in.. Maybe i am just lousy? or maybe just because i am demoralize and upset with the surrounding happening to me? but what really happen to me? I don't know.... Maybe i am just mentality drained...... or it happen long ago.....
Maybe because Best friends isn't by my side lending me shoulder to lie on and cry when usually i will have it. Maybe Best friends is no more Best friends as i did not maintain it.
I seriously do not know what to do, how to do & when can i know what's really went wrong...
I having been holding up my tears, do not know how to cry or what to cry about but i bet if there's someone hugging me tight and ask me are you ok? if you want to cry just cry it out all you can maybe i will...
Am i a good friend? Am i likeable to others? Why do i care so much what other thinks? Simply ignore? Putting a cover over myself and pretend i am really happy when i am not?
Maybe smile and happiness is the key to cure sadness and hurt :)))
LOVES,
niinii :)))))))))))))
{7:13 PM}
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LOVES :))))))
niinii :)
{11:37 PM}
HELLO :)))))))))))))))))))))) Hee!
Finally the lazy princess clean up the Spider Webbbbbby from her Bloggggggg! :pp *Gosh!*
Anyway WORK had really tied me down real hard! *Can't really catch any breathe*
Kimmy is leaving RBS, this really pain me... She have been like a Big sister guiding me along... Really... and when she comes to me, return my pen, i feel something is not right but don't want to think too much so just joke around but..... when she come with the names and numbers..... it really really shock me without any prepare... Stay on with my tears but yet tears still roll down and burst out in the toilet..
Letting Belinda aka Ah huii also haha seeing me burst out and say to me, i really have to cry out to feel better but i do not want Kimmy to see it and make her cry too :)) she have been really nice to me~ I am totally blank and just cry... Feel that no more her with us, some part of me feel gone and during roadshow on Friday, she tell me i have grown! haha! From 5 yrs old grown up to 6yrs old!
Hey is a great news to me, ok! haha Happy Birthday to this 19 yrs old Princess with a 6 YEARS OLD BRAIN! Instead of 5~ hee~
I miss Bao, Hui, Faye LOADS! What u can really do?
My heart is mess up and have been keeping there if i have to bring out to someone, this really gonna took me 1 days to pour out to my dearest friends :_(
. Mess up
. Blur
. Upset with loads of things
. Stress
. Cry
. Disappointment
. Complicated
. How it become this way?
. Why isn't like this?
. What should i do?
. What's going on?
. Things just hurling around me!
Without Kimmy, Bao, Hui and Faye, i can't pour any single thing or even i do not even have the time to really pour out to them............
My side who i really trust and will be with me most of the time is Stephen, Belinda and SQ but i don't know how to really pour out to them.. is feel really funny ok?
Anyway it will be keeping in my heart and i don't know how to put it in a way... I can't probably repeat my thinkings and stuff to ALL 7 People that is i feel comfortable with right?
There's still alot of friends from ITE, Volleyballs too so how or who should goes to? LOL
This is really funny hor...
Ok i am going out soon :pp
Psssst~!:
Ohhhh! Ivan one of my Team Manager, ASK ME WHEN AM I GOING TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL AGAIN! SHOCK ME OK! HAHA! But is really fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P bleahs!
Uploadsss Photoss Soon! Let the photo do all the talking!
But i going out de and i am lazy!!!!! HAHA!
BYE!~
LOVES :)))))))))))
{1:54 PM}
It been soooo long, i did not update my blog ~ Here i am ! haha...
Anyway life's been good =) Things been alright =) Have a crazy decision! Wanna to take leave and jump onto SUPERSTAR VIRGO CRUISE! O_O haha
Anyway, Cry & Laughter happen to me this 2 months... Hope's everyone living well! I miss school days, i miss my besties and i miss singing! lalalala!~ haha
I tell Kimmy alot of things, all of my office people find that i am a little girl that never grow up =\ Coming 20 but only have a 5 years old brain... By Kimmy haha! But she is a very nice friend of mine in work! She go through alot and i like her alot as fren! aha!
Erm, there's a group don't like me in my company... In the beginning, somehow we are close, we go out every weekend but after one of my fren bday, they seems to change which i do not know what i do =\ Just few days ago actually...
I cry over it but Kimmy and Shi Qiang thinking is why do you care how they think? Actually the group is only 2 persons *No names! =)* they are nice friend actually but what Uncle SQ say is character clashing with each other so ya just CLASH is nothing related to my attitude as he think my attitude is just totally fine but not everyone can be like him & Kimmy, accepting my attitude and let me be haha! But my thinking is dead there which is i did not do anything wrong, why they dislike me for? But SQ insist that why must do wrong things then will get dislike?! Just 8 character clashed, simple and easy and IGNORE! haha... I don't know but ya this is roughly what i know as the 2 person do not want to tell me and tell me nah nothing just thinking too much when i am trying to find out what have i done when i did not do anything actually or maybe i did done something that's why i got dislike by them?... =\ Get a big hugg by Kimmy cos she see me crying so badly
*I cry so badly cos i know i done nothing wrong but i got this from them without knowing any reasons =\ feel retarded as i know something is not right yet i can still talk to them when i know they will ignore me* Just like got stab by someone at the back and die unpeacefully without knowing the reasons, EXACTLY THIS IS HOW I FEEL =\
but feel alot better as i seeing Kimmy ah girl eyes turn red when hugging me =) I do not want my friend get upset with me together so i decided not to cry anymore and i won't die without the both of them anyway =)
I got loads of friends surrounding so who cares! haha! I know i am nice to people and that's enough!
Oh but ya, learn alot from Kimmy & SQ *ShiQiang*, In sales line, AGGRESSIVE is a must =\ and the both of them always get piss off by me when i don't stand for myself whenever things happen... erm just feel sorry always when they stand for me and i ........ But is time for this little princess to grow up and not living in a fairytales anymore =)
*but they always say, feel sorry for what? Is your right not ours ... =( *Feel poke!*=\*
I have no aim no dream so right now i am setting my aim and dreams! I gonna have my study, enjoy my life all i can, do whatever things i like *Volleyball, Yoga, GOD & $_$*
Yup! =) Anyway works seems alright for me as i don't care what the both of them think anymore as i try my best to find out also=) I have try my best to find out and what i get from SQ is just character not suitable for each other so ya seeing Kimmy get upset when find me crying so badly over 2 persons and do not know what to do for me at all when seeing me cry as she think i can simply ignore as i can't let every single one to like me and no one can =)
*Although she always say not problem also is yours so i don care at all but she will get upset with me when seeing me like this =)*
Yup the next day i simply ignore =) as long as i am being nice and did not backstabbing them or even badmouth, my conscious is clear =)
I promise myself that i am gonna change and not being a little girl or even a Lady only have a 5 yrs old brain! yup!
I will update often =) i gonna put pictures! Aha!~ Cheers and work hard for $_$ & ENJOY! =0
Thanks Kimmy Tan & Wu Shi Qiang! =) Haha!
MISS FAYE < BAO < HUI < FRENS!
*More updates on pictures, funny things, brighter day to me and father day =\*
Coming Soon!~ =)
{9:32 PM}
Anyway today is my VinZ VinZ birthday! haha.. I can't surprise him at all =\ because he was with me the whole day ok... Want get cake or etc also hard -.-"
So i go find candle which is last year i surprise him with a cake and keep the candle.. ok i wash up the gift i bought for vinz during valentine day, famous amos cookies heart shape box to put the candle =) because no cake mah so no choice also haha...
But i did not suprise him ok =.= because i can't find any lighter nor matches in his house so in the end i have to go to his kitchen while his mum still awake ok... and secretly take the gun that fire the stove... So funny...
So while VinZ is sleeping, the guns click sound wake VinZ up and i look at him, suddenly saw him peeping =_= then i go up to him and push him down hardly (like play wrestling =X) questioning him, You know WHAT I DO RIGHT?! Haha then he denied and say nonono... I never saw anything LOL! then i say ok ... Don't Peek! LOL...
Then after light up the candle this is how it looks =)
Nice? hehe =p
Happy Birthday darling! =)
{1:08 AM}
ok this is funny story from vinz haha =X So this giving me a reason to EAT =P
I love this Doctor
Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true? !
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it.... don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.
Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.
Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!
Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.
Q:: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!
Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! .... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?
Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.
Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best! feel-good food around!
Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! ! 'Round' is a shape!
Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.
And remember:
'Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO, What a Ride'
AND.....
For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on nutrition and health.. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies..
1. The Japanese eat very little fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
3. The Chinese drink very little red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.
CONCLUSION
Eat and drink what you like.
Speaking English is apparently what kills you.
{12:53 AM}
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